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Friday, August 31, 2007 5:51 pm
310807 listen, ♥  dun give up on me whn i havent given up on you. KELLOCKIANS ROCK! (: I LOVE DEBORAH AND YIJUN! <333333333333 I MISS KELLOCK SOOOOOO MUCH! (x caught up with the girls. so funn! (: YAYS! (: I DUN OWE YOU ANYTHING. let me be the one who'll hold you tight. CLARE! (:
Thursday, August 30, 2007 10:15 pm
300807 listen, ♥  i dun have much to give except my love. i'm having serious butt cramp. LOLS! (x tired. :D i'm going to sleep now! GOODNIGHT! xP going bck to kellock tmr! (: YAYS! ;X but damn sad sch ends late. DAMN! i'm studying SUPER hard for my N levels. JIAYOUS MARTY! xD i know that i can do it! (; i will do my BEST! :D THE BEST IS YET TO BE! (: YOU ARE GOD'S GIFT TO ME AND I TREASURE YOU. our heart will always beat as one. CLARE! (:
Wednesday, August 29, 2007 8:53 pm
290807 listen, ♥  walk the distance with me and never look back. hello there! (: i havent been blogging. been busy. hahas. been studying for social studies. its in less than a week! next tuesday! AHHHH! n levels starts next monday. good luck to me. alrights. i got to go study lerhs! hehes. maybe tmr. damn tired and shagg now. hees! YAYS! going bck to kellock on friday! (: going to see my primary school friends! (: I MISS KELLOCKIANS! :D I MISS THOSE DAY! (x damn! i hate it whn my mum starts to nag! GOODBYE! :D & LOVEEEEEEEE! :D CAUSE MY HEART IS BREAKING WITH EVERY WORD YOU'RE SAYING. i havent seen that beauty in you. CLARE! (:
Saturday, August 25, 2007 8:14 pm
250807 listen, ♥  when you're gone, the remaining pieces of my heart are missing too. its gonna be a huge post. 10 quotes and stuff. LOLS! it might hang. be prepared. LOLS! (; POEM! you gave me hope amidst my sorrow may it be tomorrow, that i can love again and in return for what i've borrowed be with you tomorrow and until the end i know the road we're on is narrow along comes tomorrow, we're gonna see the sun and with the wings of the first sparrow new light of tomorrow we're gonna be as one WHAT'S LOVE? When you are together with that special someone, you pretend to ignore that person. But when that special someone is not around, you might look around to find them. At that moment, you are in love. Although there is someone else who always makes you laugh, your eyes and attention might go only to that special someone. Then, you are in love. Although that special someone was supposed to have called you long back, to let you know of their safe arrival, your phone is quiet. You are desperately waiting for the call! At that moment, you are in love. If you are much more excited for one short e-mail from that special someone than other many long e-mails, you are in love. When you get a couple of free movie tickets, you would not hesitate to think of that special someone. Then, you are in love. You keep telling yourself, "that special someone is just a friend", butyou realize that you can not avoid that person's special attraction. At that moment, you are in love. While you are reading this mail, if someone appears in your mind, then u are in love with that person. [AQUARIUS WOMAN] If you are in love with a woman in this zodiac be prepared to be very happy or be very sorry. She is a very busy person with her own matters similar to a guy in this zodiac. She is able to live by herself without any guy in her life, a very strong person indeed. Not because she does not have a dream guy, but if she can not find such person, so what. Because she thinks she could do anything that a man can do. She is a leader, a real confident type. She likes to do things by herself, such as serving herself, opening the door herself. Because she thinks waiting for a helping hand is a waste of time, and she is not patient enough to wait around for that. If she starts to ask you out, do not think she starts to flirt with you, but because she thinks it is a waste of time to wait for you to be the one who asked. She likes a COOL guy who sometime act like he is ignoring her, so he has a chance to show him his own confident. She like to guess her man's reaction, but at the same time many men are always wanting for her. She is a daring type who could just do thing differently from other people in her same society. She dare to fight for what she thinks belonged to her. If she breaks up with someone , she won't show any emotion even deep down inside pain and agony. Not for long she will come back to be the cheery and merry person again, because she looks at the world positively and has "Faith" in the word "Love". She has more men friends than women friends, so do not be a jealous type if you date her. She could be slightly jealous, but she hates jealous guy. She loves "Freedom" so before and after marriage, her freedom has to be the same. She likes you to trust her, even if she does not trust you anyhow. She likes to be the one who is "Right", so if you argue with her , let her win if it is not a big deal for you in that subject. She is a straight forward type, so if she does not love you anymore, she will just tell you straight to your face. Her love and relationship are always real, so if she say "It's over" be prepare to leave, she is not testing you. She is not a vulnerable type, so do not have to worry about her, she will survive by herself. If she is with you when you get sick, she will certainly take care and look after you, even look after you mean "small loan". Do not have secret with her, she hates it and really can piss her badly. When she is sad , be understanding. When she is happy, be happy with her, she likes that. You will not get bore with this type of girl. Someone who is close to her will know that deep down beneath that confident and cold hearted person, she is just as fragile as any woman. She is a fun and talkative person and she likes to tease you. Do not let she talk alone, if you do she will leave. She has many type of jobs because she beliefs what a man can do, I can do. If you want her to work for you, forget it. When she is in love, she will just leave her job in the day time just to come to see you, but not for long she will go back to work seriously again. Prepare to live and love with a "Working Woman" then you will be OK. If she mad, find a shelter for the "Hurricane" is here! Her bad temper will last very shortly though. She is not a revenge type and will not think of "pay Back" time. Most people might think of her as "One of a guy", but in fact she is a 100% woman. She is easily hurt, so be nice with her. If she really loves you, then you are lucky because she is an honest, truthful and will never bored you. Understand that sometimes she will be over confident and sometimes like to have power or act bossy. I HAVE LOST YOU. I thought that everything, Was perfect. We were the best, For each other. We were the happiest, Of everyone. Every memory we had, Were the greatest, And only memory I had. And now that I have lost you, It’s so hard to realize, But I have lost you. I’m all alone, Without you. Without a friend, Without a love, I have had, Since I first found you. I can’t, And will never, Forget you. I can only live happy, With you, And only with you. Without you now, My life is broken, Broken into pieces. There is nothing left, To smile, To cry, And to love. I can’t still believe that, We are apart. Sometime I just forget, That we are apart. I just sit, And wait for no one, When dinner comes. I just sit, And wait for no one, When Valentine comes. Sometime when I wake up, I forget that you, Are not here with me, Anymore. I don’t, And never want to, Admit the truth. The truth always hurts me, Always makes me sad. I guess, Everything that is perfect, Is always the worse. The worse of everything. FORGET LOVE` All the dreams yesterday, Hands in hands, Happiness held me tight, Sweet dreams, Nights without having to worry, About being alone, Those beautiful, Careful days, Now sit here with me, But you are not here, That voice singing in the night, Putting me to sleep, Now gone by like the wind, Those hands that held me, Now turn cold, And distance. The memories of love, The kisses that are still, Deeply felt in my lips, The love still remains, Within my heart, But the person is gone. No goodbye, But lots of tears, Had fell down my face, The day you left me, I don’t want to be alone, Without your love, I don’t want to sit here, Thinking about tomorrow, But what can I do, Now that you are gone. I’ll sit here, Trying to forget, Those seasons in your hands, Falling in love, I’ll sleep tonight, Trying to forget, The pain that you left, When you said goodbye, I will forget about tomorrow, Forget those promises, You made to me, I will forget everything, So I won’t have to cry, When I think about you WE LOVED EACH OTHER# We loved each other, Like the flowers and the sun, Like the moon and the stars, We loved each other, Like the clouds and the sky. Our love was all that we wanted, But I knew, Love couldn't keep us alive, Love wouldn't keep us together, Forever. I knew you would be bored, When time came, When time passed by us, So soon, And so fast, We forgot that our love, Was dying with the passing time. We lived together, By minutes, By seconds, But what did we have, When we stood there, Hand and hand, We were together, But our hearts were in different places. What more was there, When you didn't look into my eyes, And said that you loved me, With all your life. What more was there for us, When we both stood still, And watched the leaves, Fly with the wind, Like our love was all alone MY TRUST FOR YOU IS RUINED* When you smiled at me, From that moment, I thought, You were the one, That I really loved, From the bottom, Of my heart. When I looked at, You with those words, You said to me, I gave you all my trust. The trusts I had, I gave them all to you. Wanting nothing back, From you, But all the words, All the things, That you promised, To complete, To give to me, That were done. Now, What you give me, Are just lies, And sadness. Your words of love, For me, Seem to die away. The time you spend, With me, All are now cold, Like a sad, Winter day. I could never, Go back to those days, And you could never, Really give me, What you have, Promised me. My trust for you is ruined, By your lies, Your love, The love, That is really not meant for me. If I could look you, In your eyes, And tell you, And see all the lies, You have, To give me, I would never love, And can never love you, At all. You are just, A waste of time. You are a waste, Of my time. OUR TIME WAS UP- When you loved me, Did you love me, For who I was, Or did you love me, For what I had, What I owned. What I had, I gave them all to you, I don’t know what more, You would want from me. What I owned, I shared them with you, I don’t know, What more I could, Show you, But my heart, And my love for you. When you walked into, My life, Did you come with love, Or did you come, With a plan, Did you come, Just to have fun, Just to love me, Just to hold me, Then you would leave me. When you walked into, My life, Did you wanted to share, Your love, Your heart, With me, Or did you just, Wanted to come, And go? How many lonely nights, With you beside me. You brightened up my life, You gave me hopes, You gave me dreams, Then there were those moments, When our time was up, And you didn’t come anymore, When you didn’t show up, In my life, And the next thing I knew, You were no where, To be seen, You were out so far, Out of my reach, Out of my eyes, You were gone, Our time was up. WHEN THERE IS YOU_ When there is you, In my life, I am much happy, With your love. When you smile, You get me going, When you talk, Your words move me, Gently and slowly. When there is you, In my sleep, I dream you are, Beside me. In my dream, We are so happy, Together, And for each other. If one day, You walk away, My life, Won't be the same. The happy times, Will fly away, The happy smiles, Will die, With the passing wind, The happy words, Will vanish, Like the afternoon shadows. If you do go, In my sleep, I will be all alone. In my dreams, There will be one, There will be nothing, But dark shadows, Of two lonely figures. The happy dreams, Will melt, Like the ending of winter. When there is you, The flowers, Grow happily, Lively. When there is you, The sky is blue, The moon is bright, The sun shines bright. When you go, The flowers, Will hang still, Lifelessly. When you go, The sky will darken, The moon will be dimming, And the sun, Will refuse to shine. SMILE ON YOUR LIPS; When I first, Met you, Your smile, Overtook me into, Your arms, I fell, And surrendered, To your love. When I first, Held you, In my arms, The warmth, You gave to me, It was so tender, I didn't want, To let go of you, From right at that, Very moment. The smiles, You gave me, When I held you, On the summer day, Of love, I thought for once, I had finally, Found the person, I would spend, The rest of my life with. The love you gave me, I couldn't resist, But the tears, And pain, You left on me, When you walk away, I did want, To give away. I didn't want it, I wanted to give away, The pain, So I could take, You back, Into my arms. I knew, Taking you back, Would only be pain, And more pain, In my life, But I loved you, So much, To let you go. I want to go back, To the days, When the smiles, Were still with me, When those smiles, Truly belonged to me. quotes nt from me derhs. found it. (: ENJOY! :D THE WORDS I ALWAYS NEED TO HEAR TO GET ME THROUGH THE DAY. dun you see hw much i need you right now? CLARE! (:
10:58 am
250807 listen, ♥  i'm sorry i carnt be prefect. studying with loonee was funn! (: hahas. hmm, but we ended up slacking. LOLS! mahjong. damn! we were suspose to be studying luhs. LOLS! alright. damn bored. woke up 1/2 an hr ago. LOLS! TIRED! :D i dun wanna sleep though. damn sian. STUDY! (: and i've made an affirmation. i've nvr really loved you. you're just one of the little people out there, who cares. and i dun love you. i only care for you. i dun love you like i did yesterday. YOU JUST DUN GET IT. the way you make me look at you with all the simple things you're said. CLARE! (:
Thursday, August 23, 2007 4:54 pm
230807 listen, ♥  take the right person with you. integrity? i thought you didnt have any. what is your defination of integrity, and what is the defination of mine. i doubt if it tally luhs. i am doubting teacher's capabilities. in what way are they inferior to us? damn! they're all humans for goodness sake. and wads the problem with bottling your feelings? theres nothing wrong luhs! damn! this sucks man! seriously, if you wanna find a target to get rid of. i'm sorry. you will NEVER get rid of me. get this right and straight. i'll say it flat in your face if you force me to. i hate you! i hate school! i hate teachers! i hate the education system! damn life! when love begins with me and you. hand in hand together we stand. we'll walk together through it all. just you and me. YOU MEAN THAT MUCH TO ME. my days are shorten whenever i think of you. CLARE! (:
Wednesday, August 22, 2007 5:27 pm
220807 listen, ♥  did you ever know that you're my hero? guang huai fang shi. i wanna get it out of my head. i wanna get things i wanna have. i am NOT satisfied with what i've got. i want MORE! its unfair to judge. its unfair to discriminate. its unfair to just do what you have done. you should be fair. its the only way we get to know where we stand. asshole! shit all that you have done. you wun get things your way. i will protest against you! i can and i will! BIAS BITCH! die early! nvr judge anyone with what little things they have. for that little things can turn into somthing wonderful. get it? oh yahh, get your facts right man! whn i say i love you i mean it. whn you say you love me, do you mean it? do you put your heart and soul into saying it? i carnt help but doubt your love for me. YOU ARE THE ONE I SEEK. baby come back to me. CLARE! (:
Tuesday, August 21, 2007 7:37 pm
210807 listen, ♥  i'll do my best to protect you cos without you i'll die. dashed. crushed. gone. shattered. damn the results i've got. shit head. IMPROVEMENT! i need. BADLY please! iloveyou, do you love me in return? WHERE WERE YOU WHEN I NEEDED YOU MOST? you're the sweetest thing i've ever tasted. CLARE! (:
6:33 pm
jonn's video listen, ♥  i will be waiting here for you. jonn's video. (: IF YOU WANT ME TO STAY ON, THN I'M JUST A CALL AWAY. words carnt describe the way i feel towards you. CLARE! (:
Monday, August 20, 2007 6:28 pm
200807 listen, ♥  whn i wanna share my joys and pain, whr were you? totally destroyed. future ruin? nope, i'm picking up the bits and pieces. i'm carrying on with life. results sucked. fark what i've done. shit the effort i did not put in. N LEVELS! i wanna get 3-7 points. shit maths alright. i wun give up though. keep going on. JIAYOUS GIRL! :D if i told you i miss you, what would you say to me in return? if i told you i love you, what would you do to make sure its true. if i told you i'll never leave you alone. would you doubt my words? if i said all i do for you is because i love you. would you believe me? i would die for you, in return.. would you die for me. at your death bed, would you say you love me? THE NEW BEGINING. goodnight my love, its time to say goodbye. CLARE! (:
Sunday, August 19, 2007 4:46 pm
190807 listen, ♥  does my living and dying mean anything to you? i'm random. time waits for no man. get my drift? I'M PROBABLY EVERYTHING YOU'RE NOT. we hold onto our dreams no matter hw far they are. MARTHA! (:
Saturday, August 18, 2007 9:07 pm
180807 listen, ♥  all things has its beauty. i've finally seen hw precious life is. but i carnt bring myself to carry on this life. would you end all these pain for me? let me leave you with love. just remember that i'll always be there, and i love you. well, i also think.. its time to let go. GOODBYE! :D YOU WUN NOE HW MUCH I LOVE YOU UNTIL THE DAY I LEAVE YOU. doubt me all you want. MARTHA!
Friday, August 17, 2007 9:16 pm
random! listen, ♥  i just thought of being randommmmm.
9:10 pm
bleahs listen, ♥  cos you dunno hw much he means to me. CIEN, XUETING, LEONG AN! I AM NOT ANGRY LUHS! o.0 i angry for what? LOLS! damn funny sia you all! I WOULD BE THE ONE ALWAYS THERE FOR YOU. the greatest gift in all my life is loving you. MARTHA!
8:43 pm
170807 listen, ♥  any idea hw hurt i felt when you walked away? why do i care? why do you care? why should i care? give me a reason to believe you cos i trust you no more. i dun get it! why are you doing all these to gain attention? she's you friend's boy! fark it! damn you! seriously, i hate your actions! i have nth much to say. i screwed up my maths paper. fark luhs. big tyme screw up. bloody hell! IT HAS BECOME A DAILY AFFAIR. you left me just when i needed you most. MARTHA!
Thursday, August 16, 2007 5:03 pm
160807 listen, ♥  not just someone just to get me through the night. drats! its been a week since i last blogged. thought of changing blogskin. LOLS! (x i dunno luhs! damn sian. whole week of exams. freaking difficult sia today's paper. sat for a maths today. almost died doing it luhs. damn bloody difficult luhs. but i tried and there was not enough time luhs. sian diaos. ahhh! i passed my e maths paper one. damn gay. i gt 30/60. LOLS! damn idiotic luhs. lols! nvrmind, i'll try harder next time! nth else. going to study! GOODBYE! :D I COULD USE SOME DIRECTION AND I'M OPEN TO YOUR SUGGESTIONS! i'm hoping you'll be there for me till the end. MARTHA! (:
Thursday, August 09, 2007 5:57 pm
090807 listen, ♥  i've been searching but i just don't see the signs. the truth speaks for itself. my heart would still continue to beat. i can climb the highest mountain and swim the deepest sea for you. i can do anything to love you but what have you done? all you've ever done for me is to lie to me and hurt me. what else can you do? you are not worth any of my time! i've always thought it does nt take a genius to love. but now, i beg to differ. it takes a genius to hold onto someone. and trust me, i'll NEVER do that for YOU. you're not worth anything i do! THERE'S GOTTA BE SOMETHING FOR ME SOUL OUT THERE. i've been looking for someone to shed some light. MARTHA!
5:49 pm
090807 listen, ♥  all i wanna do is find a way back into love. as your lying gets better, my trust towards you fades. why is it my fault whn YOU were the one who broke those promises? you're the BIGGEST failure i've ever met! i knew you lied, but i didnt walk away just thn. and now, i'm denying you your chance. i trust you NO MORE. why is it always so difficult to trust the one you love? you no longer mean a thing to me. I CARNT MAKE THROUGH WITHOUT A WAY BACK INTO LOVE. i've been watching but the stars refuse to shine. MARTHA!
Wednesday, August 08, 2007 9:18 pm
080809 listen, ♥  i've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed. what can i do to make you love me? what can i do to be deserved? nothing i do seems to be recognised. fark what i said, dun want you back. SUNDAY! :D had a long long day. james birthday. he's 21. lalalas~ days are like tooooot. WEDNESDAY! :D didnt go to sch today. hehes. on PURPOSE! (: went out for a movie. the simpsons RAWKS! (: hahas! damn funny. i find it hilarious! (; it was simply awesome! (: hehh` went for lunch. thn leong an and xueting went off lerhs. cien, yinxiu and i were bored. we walked arnd west mall. bought my maths book lerhs! (: super happy. yinxiu and cien thn came ovr to my hse. (: we watched teeeeveeeee the whole tyme. and i sent them down together with marcus to the bus stop. thn came home. BORED! lalalals` theres nth more i can say or do to you any longer. i dun care any longer. and i dun wanna bother anymore. i hate you. and wanna get rid of you. i hate you! i hate you! i hate you! die idiot. fark what you did. get outta my life! YOU SUCK! TRAPPED IN THE PAST. i just carnt seem to move on. MARTHA!
Saturday, August 04, 2007 11:40 am
040807 listen, ♥  even till the ends of the earth. i havent been in a very good mood. neither have i been myself. i dunno what went wrong where. and i dun wanna noe why. i just hate you, and i simply hate life. today is achiever's day. I AM AN ACHIEVER! (: proud of myself. because success is finally coming my way. wednesday was the day i wanted to die. i wanted to give up and just disappear. but i couldnt do that. why do i care? i am lost and so confuse. save me someone. my cries of help wouldnt make any difference. must i ALWAYS be stuck with this kind of shyte stuff? i hate it! just ended my phase one prelims. they were not that bad luhs. social studies wasnt that bad. but i screwed the last question because i was too lazy to study diplomacy. hahas! (x whatever luhs. theres nth much i wanna do or say. i dun wanna care anymore. since my existence means nth to you. and since you wouldnt bother about what i've ever said. theres nth i wanna say and do. I DUN CARE! I DUN CARE! I DUN CARE! its not as if you're my only one. NO MATTER HOW FAR YOU ARE I'LL ALWAYS BE THERE. i would have no second choice in my life. MARTHA! |
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